Makenna falling from cooler

Yesterday, I had a rough day as my thorn in my flesh was being gouged severely. I wanted to get away from everyone. I prayed about it, but it was still there. I knew it would pass, as I was on trial for something. So I waited it out, but I did not know what was going to happen. Makenna fell from the cooler to turn the light switch off and I blew up. Being repentive of my actions, I looked to the Lord intensely.

It is amazing how God will strike us down, to teach us. To dish out consequences!!! I was on trial by fire and was consumed by IT. IT- being me the person, of who I was- rather who I wasn't in Christ. The consequences come around the corner. The consequences is constructive, not a bad thing!!! God uses consequences as His tool to show us what will continue to happen if we do not conform to His teachings. He is trying to tell you something through it, and I hope you listen as I have.

I tethered my yoke upon my children, my laundry, my chores. I was shooting out bullets, now I should shoot out splats of His love. I rejected my children, being consumed in MY self perseverance, selfish. Worshipping Idols- my computer, my fantasy baseball... being content on doing NOTHING during the day, rather than being constructive. I was lazy in my complacency, but God put the joy in doing chores. The joy of the Lord is my strength. I will do laundry with joy, I will do dishes with joy, I will clean the house with joy. I have sacrificed the complacency that consumed my everyday life, being idle with my idols. But I have taken my tether off of my complacency and put it upon my children, family, chores... and will do it with joy.

I have been praying to be a good manager of my time, managing my children, laundry, chores... of which I had no joy in doing. I despised chores, living (rather NOT living) in joy, but in hatred.

Thank you God for showing me what I was made of and dealing with it, for without you, I would only be destructive.



hmmmm, todays devotional scripture reading is 2 COR 4: 5-10

5 For we do not preach ourselves, but Christ Jesus the Lord, and ourselves your bondservants for Jesus’ sake. 6 For it is the God who commanded light to shine out of darkness, who has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.

Cast Down but Unconquered


7 But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us. 8 We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed— 10 always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body.