How much longer must this go on...
As I walked yesterday in the fields contemplating my situation in how I fully trust God in every aspect in my life. I am hanging onto my very last threads of money... now I got a problem w/ my bronco that is going to cost a couple of hundred- of which, makes it tough to fathom in spending what money I have on car parts. I am stuck here in Palmer, whence, my wife and I are still considering divorce.
Sooooo, my question is...... what is God trying to do for my future life??? Uncle Don is here by suffering a stroke- does God want me to minister to him? I WAS going to take care of him- but that failed. Grace had her teeth pulled out when I was going seek council for divorce- so that failed. Grace got sick last friday and now I am finally here in Palmer... AND MY BRONCO HAS FAILED!!! Sooooo, I guess I can sit back and see what God is going to do.....
I still gotta look for work, but is God keeping me from it??? I have gotten every job I have applied for except for this time around.
How do I go about fully trusting Him with doubt in my mind... 4 Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice!
5 Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand.
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Haughty and a prideful heart
Does your tongue condemn or does it love with humbleness?
Haughty eyes and a proud heart,
The lamp of the wicked, is sin. Pvb 21:4
Nobody likes to be struck down by their actions. There is no need to have a harsh tongue in response either.
We are to be blameless.
Sometimes we fall, get up in shame- knowing that we could have withstood our battle. Then it feels that we have become a worthless witness of Christ and feel that you are not worthy of this job and want to quit. But, what is up with that? Get back up and see what just happened and try and be ready the next time it happens.
If we are not Jesus and we are designed to be sinners, then, do we not carry "The lamp of the wicked"? The lamp of the wicked is sin- AND WE ARE ALL SINNERS!!! We sin every day without knowing.
Lets acknowledge our sin before the Lord and ask for forgiveness of our sins.
So, if we are instructed to become more like Jesus, He will prompt us put down that lamp of the wicked. My case in point is... what the heck has happened to my marriage??? We have casted each other down and have built up a defense against one another and have no interest of making a treaty. Instead, we are just waiting for a mistake, being ready to attack.
Haughty eyes and a proud heart...
Am I not proud to have such a wall of defense that I have put up against my wife. Mainly against drinking- I think...
Haughty means to arrogantly superior. Pride kinda means to so enthralled in your stature. Both of these we carry all to often and stand behind them in regards to our own perception of Christianity. The bible speaks of the wicked often and we do not consider ourselves to be of the wicked.
We stand in our own vision of righteousness thinking that we are not the ones that are wrong and fight back. Doesn't God tell us to humble ourselves??? BE HUMBLE. I don't think that God tells us to stand firm and yell back in defense. We are going outside of God's instruction and having haughty eyes and a proud heart. We put ourselves higher than those whom we perceive as the lost and cast judgement on them instead of being humble, mending relationships as God desires.
LETS FIX WHAT IS WRONG!!! LETS NOT LET IT GO ON ITS PATH OF DESTRUCTION!!! IN FACT, LETS ACKNOWLEDGE OUR WAYS BEFORE GOD AND HE WILL MAKE OUR PATHS STRAIGHT. LETS NOT GIVE UP IF WE ARE BEING A FALSE WITNESS, LETS FIX IT AND MOVE ON!!!
Amen
Haughty eyes and a proud heart,
The lamp of the wicked, is sin. Pvb 21:4
Nobody likes to be struck down by their actions. There is no need to have a harsh tongue in response either.
We are to be blameless.
Sometimes we fall, get up in shame- knowing that we could have withstood our battle. Then it feels that we have become a worthless witness of Christ and feel that you are not worthy of this job and want to quit. But, what is up with that? Get back up and see what just happened and try and be ready the next time it happens.
If we are not Jesus and we are designed to be sinners, then, do we not carry "The lamp of the wicked"? The lamp of the wicked is sin- AND WE ARE ALL SINNERS!!! We sin every day without knowing.
Lets acknowledge our sin before the Lord and ask for forgiveness of our sins.
So, if we are instructed to become more like Jesus, He will prompt us put down that lamp of the wicked. My case in point is... what the heck has happened to my marriage??? We have casted each other down and have built up a defense against one another and have no interest of making a treaty. Instead, we are just waiting for a mistake, being ready to attack.
Haughty eyes and a proud heart...
Am I not proud to have such a wall of defense that I have put up against my wife. Mainly against drinking- I think...
Haughty means to arrogantly superior. Pride kinda means to so enthralled in your stature. Both of these we carry all to often and stand behind them in regards to our own perception of Christianity. The bible speaks of the wicked often and we do not consider ourselves to be of the wicked.
We stand in our own vision of righteousness thinking that we are not the ones that are wrong and fight back. Doesn't God tell us to humble ourselves??? BE HUMBLE. I don't think that God tells us to stand firm and yell back in defense. We are going outside of God's instruction and having haughty eyes and a proud heart. We put ourselves higher than those whom we perceive as the lost and cast judgement on them instead of being humble, mending relationships as God desires.
LETS FIX WHAT IS WRONG!!! LETS NOT LET IT GO ON ITS PATH OF DESTRUCTION!!! IN FACT, LETS ACKNOWLEDGE OUR WAYS BEFORE GOD AND HE WILL MAKE OUR PATHS STRAIGHT. LETS NOT GIVE UP IF WE ARE BEING A FALSE WITNESS, LETS FIX IT AND MOVE ON!!!
Amen
Saturday, October 3, 2009
David and Goliath
1 Samuel 17:24-47
I think that I have finally won my first battle; in the matter of defending my trust in God.
How easy is it for me to give into my wretchedness as perceived by the people around me. I say this in the sense that in the eyes of man, I have not provided much value to my life and those around me. In agreement to their words, I had only accepted it in defeat and went with their advice. But, at the same time, telling them that I am a work in progress. Sooooo, how can I accept defeat and proclaim what God is doing in my life.
I am a man with virtually nothing, barely having a roof over my head. I have no income. My finances are a wreck and am nearly out of credit. I cannot even provide a meal for my children. I cannot support monetarily to anyone in any fashion. But, I have my life to Christ, fully, because I had accepted defeat. But, here, I want to acknowledge my allegiance to God's army. And as I search for the evidence, I can see that He is dealing with everything in my life.
Today, I have stood firm in victory- sort of. God tells us not to rely on the knowledge of other men, of which my mother was trying to tell me to just leave my wife so she can move on, and that maybe she can have someone to help her raise my children. So, I told her that I would seek a divorce on Monday- and I even texted Jeanne on the matter. We continued to argue on how I wasn't loving her, in return, I told her that I was being conditioned by the abuse that I perceived by Jeanne. But, as the conversation went on, here I was having senseless debate with another person in an earthly fashion. She also mentioned that I need to go to anger management.
The bottom line is that I told my mother that I was not going to take her advice and told her that she is going before God, interacting in our marriage. I told her that I was going to let God handle it....... or something like that.
David was a young man that was in charge of tending to the sheep. He was given a little responsibility to take care of these FEW sheep. Seems simple, but... there was lions and bears that attacked. He DEFEATED these attacks and achieved victory in the task of caring for the sheep.
Now, all the people was afraid of the great Philistine and did nothing with this confrontation- they ran. David asked "For who is this uncircumcised Philistine, that he should defy the armies of the living God?”. David in his desires, wants to fight the good fight of faith against someone that is rivaling the army of God. God has given David the responsibility to fight against the goliath. Because David was responsible with what he was in charge with, winning the smaller battles and stood firm against the lions and bears.
I have just defeated my first lion. I hope and pray that I can stand firm the way God wants me to.
I think that I have finally won my first battle; in the matter of defending my trust in God.
How easy is it for me to give into my wretchedness as perceived by the people around me. I say this in the sense that in the eyes of man, I have not provided much value to my life and those around me. In agreement to their words, I had only accepted it in defeat and went with their advice. But, at the same time, telling them that I am a work in progress. Sooooo, how can I accept defeat and proclaim what God is doing in my life.
I am a man with virtually nothing, barely having a roof over my head. I have no income. My finances are a wreck and am nearly out of credit. I cannot even provide a meal for my children. I cannot support monetarily to anyone in any fashion. But, I have my life to Christ, fully, because I had accepted defeat. But, here, I want to acknowledge my allegiance to God's army. And as I search for the evidence, I can see that He is dealing with everything in my life.
Today, I have stood firm in victory- sort of. God tells us not to rely on the knowledge of other men, of which my mother was trying to tell me to just leave my wife so she can move on, and that maybe she can have someone to help her raise my children. So, I told her that I would seek a divorce on Monday- and I even texted Jeanne on the matter. We continued to argue on how I wasn't loving her, in return, I told her that I was being conditioned by the abuse that I perceived by Jeanne. But, as the conversation went on, here I was having senseless debate with another person in an earthly fashion. She also mentioned that I need to go to anger management.
The bottom line is that I told my mother that I was not going to take her advice and told her that she is going before God, interacting in our marriage. I told her that I was going to let God handle it....... or something like that.
David was a young man that was in charge of tending to the sheep. He was given a little responsibility to take care of these FEW sheep. Seems simple, but... there was lions and bears that attacked. He DEFEATED these attacks and achieved victory in the task of caring for the sheep.
Now, all the people was afraid of the great Philistine and did nothing with this confrontation- they ran. David asked "For who is this uncircumcised Philistine, that he should defy the armies of the living God?”. David in his desires, wants to fight the good fight of faith against someone that is rivaling the army of God. God has given David the responsibility to fight against the goliath. Because David was responsible with what he was in charge with, winning the smaller battles and stood firm against the lions and bears.
I have just defeated my first lion. I hope and pray that I can stand firm the way God wants me to.
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