David and Goliath

1 Samuel 17:24-47

I think that I have finally won my first battle; in the matter of defending my trust in God.

How easy is it for me to give into my wretchedness as perceived by the people around me. I say this in the sense that in the eyes of man, I have not provided much value to my life and those around me. In agreement to their words, I had only accepted it in defeat and went with their advice. But, at the same time, telling them that I am a work in progress. Sooooo, how can I accept defeat and proclaim what God is doing in my life.

I am a man with virtually nothing, barely having a roof over my head. I have no income. My finances are a wreck and am nearly out of credit. I cannot even provide a meal for my children. I cannot support monetarily to anyone in any fashion. But, I have my life to Christ, fully, because I had accepted defeat. But, here, I want to acknowledge my allegiance to God's army. And as I search for the evidence, I can see that He is dealing with everything in my life.

Today, I have stood firm in victory- sort of. God tells us not to rely on the knowledge of other men, of which my mother was trying to tell me to just leave my wife so she can move on, and that maybe she can have someone to help her raise my children. So, I told her that I would seek a divorce on Monday- and I even texted Jeanne on the matter. We continued to argue on how I wasn't loving her, in return, I told her that I was being conditioned by the abuse that I perceived by Jeanne. But, as the conversation went on, here I was having senseless debate with another person in an earthly fashion. She also mentioned that I need to go to anger management.

The bottom line is that I told my mother that I was not going to take her advice and told her that she is going before God, interacting in our marriage. I told her that I was going to let God handle it....... or something like that.

David was a young man that was in charge of tending to the sheep. He was given a little responsibility to take care of these FEW sheep. Seems simple, but... there was lions and bears that attacked. He DEFEATED these attacks and achieved victory in the task of caring for the sheep.

Now, all the people was afraid of the great Philistine and did nothing with this confrontation- they ran. David asked "For who is this uncircumcised Philistine, that he should defy the armies of the living God?”. David in his desires, wants to fight the good fight of faith against someone that is rivaling the army of God. God has given David the responsibility to fight against the goliath. Because David was responsible with what he was in charge with, winning the smaller battles and stood firm against the lions and bears.

I have just defeated my first lion. I hope and pray that I can stand firm the way God wants me to.